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Bryan & Patrick\’s Thoughts, Online Since 1999Lazy Saturday
Posted on April 01, 2006
Whereas normally on Saturday I’d be outside working in the yard, today is a bit different. Maybe its the realization that tonight will be on hour less in length, perhaps its the fact that down here in central Florida its a humid 81�F outside. Perhaps I’m lazy today because Patrick and I are attending a crawfish boil at 3pm, leaving the better part of the afternoon unavailable for gardening.
Nah, its NPR that’s to blame. My local station WMFE has a fantastic Saturday line-up – from Morning Edition to Car Talk to Wait, Wait, Don’t Tell Me to the Arts Connection to This American Life to Living on Earth to Weekend America to All Things Considered to A Prairie Home Companion to Echoes to Hearts of Space – whew! True, I listen to this line-up even if I’m gardening, even if I’m trucking mulch back from Home Depot, even if I’m outside with my hands wrist-deep in muck. But I miss too much that way, moments during stories that I’ll never know, times when entire shows pass me by forever because of other committments…unless I download it later.
So yeah, I’m laying here on the couch, reinstalling World of Warcraft on Patrick’s laptop, listening to Ira. I’ve got crawfish at 3, perhaps some friends coming out for board games tonight. Life is good. Maybe for dessert tonight, I’ll fix up a chocolate-crusted edition of Neil Gaiman’s Coraline. This is in honor of this and this.
Bellies
Posted on March 28, 2006
Last Friday, Patrick and I met a few friends for dinner at Olympia for dinner. Our waiter was entertaining and defintely playing the ambiguously gay card for whatever reason. Beth was quite taken by his looks as he fit her “badboy” style of men (think thin, tatooed, slightly redneckish). Patrick was even entertained by his cheeky remarks and possibly flirtatious comments.
After a couple bottles of some sweet, red Greek wine, we were all rather enjoying ourselves, the great food, and the occasional bellydancer. The first of the two dancers was very into her own routine, pausing only to dance with one patron. As the restraunt thinned out, the second dancer decided to take a slightly different approach.
After singling out the two most introverted people in the place, she dragged up my friend Marc to dance. Marc didn’t move too much, but kept up as best a straight guy could. After circling the room a bit, she the moved on to me. Normal Bryan, sans alcohol, would have probably sat there and waved her off. Unfortunately, alcohol, particularly wine, replaces “normal Bryan” with someone else, someone who attempts to dance.
Its scary, only a few friends have witnessed it, but it exists. And now, there’s photographic proof. Of course, this only fuels the ongoing argument at work that I’m actually an extrovert. None of them (except Marc) could ever get up and do anything like that. Sigh, oh well. Up to that point, though I was having a good time, I really wanted nothing more than to return home and play Tetris DS. So yeah, boys, still an introvert. Except when I drink…particularly wine…or hang out with my lady friends.
Everyone Avoids Me Like a Cylon Raider
Posted on March 16, 2006Patrick and I watched the season finale of Battlestar Galactica tonight. Its fantastic to see TV writing that doesn’t fall into cliche too often and actively strives to subvert the viewer’s expectations. Ron Moore, a veteran of shows like Star Trek and Roswell, has truly brought an important, subversive, and thought-spawning piece of fiction to the little screen. Everyone go watch it. Now! Why are you still here?
Now that you’re back, you can appreciate one of the best lines of the episode – “I don’t have to listen. I’m the President!” The cheek on that liberal! Clearly he must support the terrorists. What’s next, make the humans the Iraqi insurgents? Oh, whoops.
And now for the bad news – there will be no new episodes until October. That’s seven months away!! A time of mourning will now begin, but only until Friday at 9pm when new Doctor Who episodes finally materialize on American TV screens. Then…we…make….party! Fantastic!
Loss
Posted on March 06, 2006This past Monday, we found out quite suddenly that Patrick’s mother had passed away. Jackie’s departure was unexpected, leaving everyone with feelings of missed opportunities and intense remorse.
As a tribute to her life, a beautiful service was held this past weekend in Viera with over 200 of her friends and family in attendance. Some friends of ours assisted with the music, and there was a wonderful Primitive Baptist minister (think Southern Baptist without all the politics and pretentiousness) there to provide a reassuring message.
Patrick and his family, of course, were devastated. Nothing can prepare you for this kind of loss, that sudden blow to the stomach that completely and utterly changes your world. Through it all, though, he has done as well as anyone could, bravely pushing through all the grief to do what needs to be done. I’ve tried to help as much as I can, as have our friends and family who’ve been tremendous.
Now, a week later, life is slowly returning to some semblance of sanity, but the pain and loss will remain with us for many years to come. Keep Patrick and our family in your thoughts and prayers in the days to come, and thanks again to everyone for their compassion and support.
VFD
Posted on February 15, 2006While I do feel that the modern incarnation of Valentine’s Day is largely a commercially-driven outing for couples to feed the machine in the guise of romance, the actual history of the holiday is far more seditious. There was no actual St. Valentine in the Catholic faith, but rather it is thought that the festival of St. Valentine’s was to commemorate an infamous early Christian named Valentinius. Infamous, you ask? And what’s all this have to do with love?
Well, it would seem that Valentinius was well known for being a gnostic Christian, that is, a Christian who believed in secret teachings that were passed down from teacher to teacher , straight from God’s mouth to Paul’s ears. Though widely labelled heresy by the better organized (and more skillful) ecumenical Christians (ie. what turned into the Catholic church), gnostic beliefs have survived and even resurfaced in the last century with the discovery of a bunch of “lost” gospels. Its not quite as scandalous as the stuff in The Da Vinci Code, but interesting none-the-less.
Anywho, Valentinius was a big fan of conjugal love, holding it right up there with the staple rituals and beliefs of Christianity. And since there was already a Roman pagan festival of fertility around the god Lupercus in mid-February, it seemed completely natural for the Christians to eventually transform this festival into something a bit more Jesus-centered (well, as Jesus-centered as the 33-year-old Virgin could endorse). Thus, the festival seemed to beg for honoring good ol’ Valentinius, now St. Valentine.
Years later, we’re still celebrating with sugary treats, store-bought epistles, and vast flotillas of roses. For our part, Patrick and I bought each other DVD’s that we had wanted, I receiving Mirrormask and he receiving The Golden Girls: Season Three. We capped off the evening with a trip to our favorite out-of-the-way spot Yellow Dog Eats in Gotha, then back home to relax and watch a little television. Exciting? No, but that’s ok. It was quiet and quite delightful. A veritably fantastic day, in case you were wondering.
Chancy Gardening & Gay Cowboys
Posted on January 30, 2006Today (er yesterday if I go by what my computer tells me) I planted not one but TWO new trees in the front yard – a southern magnolia and a red maple. Both were provided, free of charge, by the Orange County Extension Office as part of their excellent Streetscape project. I haven’t planted anything big like that in several months, partly because of the season and partly because of a rather nasty case of leaf miners. Leaf Miners!!!
Of course, I only today (see above) discovered that my problem was leaf miners and not some funky fungus, virus, or other disease. The symptoms were these odd, curvy tracks on the underside of the leaves on my lemon, lime, citrus, and tomato plants. One of the gardeners at Lukas nursery diagnosed the problem from some leaves I brought with me and recommended a particular chemical remedy. Unfortunately, I have yet to try out this remedy, but I hope to very soon (this week when I get up early enough).
Also of note this weekend, I finally got around to seeing/reading Brokeback Mountain. What stands out amongst all of the things I enjoyed about the movie (the sheep, Jake Gyllenhaal, the way the story ends) were the feelings of terror, thankfulness, and anger. I felt the terror that those two men must have felt when even considering what would happen to them if they were caught (read tire iron). I felt the intense thankfulness that Patrick and I can have a relationship openly, share our lives together without fear of mortal danger or (much) societal scorn. And I felt the primal anger at those out there who would like nothing more than to take away what gay men and women currently have.
I’m not a violent person in the least. I’ve never struck another person to inflict serious harm. I’ve never had the least desire to shoot a real gun. I abhor the occasional necessity of warfare and detest those who lead us into conquest under false pretenses. Having said all that, I would not hesitate to take arms up against any government who would take away or interfere with my relationship with Patrick. I don’t believe that our country is anywhere close to doing something quite so insane and antithetical to what I believe are its core values, but things are happening in our country now that make me question its sanity. That I can’t even say something like the above without the hesitation that it might put me on some kind of watchlist, that might cause some ‘crat to start listening in on my phone calls, is pretty damn scary.
Go see Brokebrack Mountain and put yourself in either one of those men’s shoes. Look at all the shame, guilt, and pain that their relationship contained and caused in others, all because they couldn’t openly be with one another. Think long and hard about where we’re at as a nation, what are priorities are. Are we feeding the hungry, clothing the poor, teaching the values that aren’t just easy but rather pure? Are we teaching love by banning marriage because of gender? Are we building families by preventing gay men and women from adopting? We’re not on Brokeback Mountain anymore, but we’re still a long way from home.
Interstitials
Posted on November 09, 2005Lately I’ve been hearing from friends that I use a lot of BIG WORDS, or that such-and-such a word is the WORD OF THE DAY. Is it just me, or does anyone else not usually like to admit to not knowing a word in such a way. I’m not saying I won’t ask what a word means if its truly alien to me, but does anyone else out there try to work stuff out through context or, heaven forbid, look it up?
I do love to read, so I guess a pleasant side-effect of that love is building up a decently diverse vocabulary. One danger I’ve found, at least with the contextual approach, is the decently large chance that you’ll guess wrong and them be stuck with either a usefully vague understanding or a dead-on incorrect definition. Patrick’s recent vocab quizzes for his students pointed this out in some words I thought I knew.
Overall, I guess I just see my lack of knowledge as an embarassment and not something to trumpet to others for the sake of a funny moment. Insecure? You betcha. I do work with programmers, after all. The world has never known such an amazingly literal bunch, often to our own detriment. Well, maybe the Pharisees. And the more evangelical/orthodox followers of certain religions.
Word of the Day – Metaphor.
Bored, Cold, Lonely
Posted on October 13, 2005Yeah, I’m pretty much over Rhode Island. I’m sure its lovely during the spring and summer, and there are some pretty cool restraunts. Nah, that’s just the diplomatic side of me talking. Rhode Island sucks. The weather definitely reminds me of why they call this part of the country “New” England, as in it reminded those pilgrims of old England. The funny thing is I’d actually consider living in old England, so it can’t just be the weather that bothers me about this place.
It could be that I’m on this trip solo, and the people I’m working for aren’t terribly inviting or sociable. Next time I have to travel up here, I’ll definitely need to share the pain, er, excitement with Patrick. He’d actually enjoy some of the cute shops and scenery up here. Me, eh I’ve had my fill. Tomorrow I fly home to Patrick, the Pekingese and Pussy Posse, and WARMTH! Seriously, its cold.
Oh yeah, George and Dragon this Saturday night. Be there!
Blatherin’ Blatherskite!
Posted on October 07, 2005These last few days have just been nutty, and I’m really rather ready for my holiday, by which I should mean Columbus Day this Monday. I say ’should’ because instead of relaxing at home or perhaps working in the yard, I’ll in-fact be flying up to Newport, RI for a work trip. From what I hear, this should actually be a beautiful time of the year up there, and honestly I don’t believe this trip’s work will be nearly as stressful as previous trips. In other words, I should be grateful.
Right now, though, I’d just rather be spending time with Patrick, working in the backyard (blueberries and blackberries are planted, strawberries remain), and otherwise chillin’ at the house. Still, its not that I won’t enjoy the trip. Once I touch down and get to the hotel, my anxiety will be instantly replaced with that adventurour’s feeling excitement of being in a new place (even if that place, at the time, is just a standard hotel room). It usually takes a couple days before I start to viscerally miss home (by which I mean people, places, and routines), and by that time my trip is almost up.
I’ll be taking pictures and posting them over at the newly upgraded Flickr account, so by all means stay tuned and enjoy vicariously my travels in the state that brought you Family Guy (no, Quahog doesn’t actually exist).
News
Posted on September 06, 2005Hurray! Our band is now booked for the remaining Wednesday nights in September, except for this Wednesday, of course, since its Patrick’s birthday. Charlie’s also playing his solo gig there every Monday night, if you’re so inclined on a Monday.
After an extended-weekend of playing in the backyard, I’m feeling somewhat rested and ready to tackle other matters. Case-in-point, going to have dinner and meet with a friend about getting his small business website up and running. It should be nice as I haven’t had dinner with the full family in about a year. And they only live 15 minutes from us! Life keeps us so busy, sometimes.
Tonight, I might just begin the seasonal rearranging of the garage. It certainly needs it, and might just help me mentally prepare for any remaining tropical weather this season (ie. Ophelia).
Happy Anniversary
Posted on April 18, 2005This is just a quick announcement that today is Patrick and my 8th anniversary together. Congratulations will be accepted throughout the week.
Revival, Renewal, and Regeneration
Posted on March 29, 2005All across our northern hemisphere, life is returning to, well, life. Its the time of the year when plants start to grow again, animals ramp up the procreation, and life just seems abundant and renewed. It seems sadly ironic, then, how much attention and angst is being generated in the life of poor Terri Schiavo, who’s very existence has been opened up for all to see and come to know at the worst possible time – after its already over.
You see, I don’t think Terri is with us anymore. Sure, her body is still hanging on, but her life, her vitality, her existence has fled its prison long ago. Imaging done of her brain shows that there is almost nothing left of the cortex but spinal fluid, hence no chance of revival or anything remotely like consciousness. Not clear on this issue’s facts? Check here for a good run-down, complete with some responses to all the rumors floating around. After reading that information, it puts pretty much all my doubts to rest on this issue.
And what should I think about Terri’s parents? Clearly they feel differently on just what life means than do the people on the other side of the issue. Even though I don’t agree with their perspective, I can’t fault them for fighting for her life. I guess if anything I would rather they not involved the absolute worst representative for the pro-life movement, one Randall Terry. Click here for an interesting review of this man’s life in the news. Even if you are pro-life, you probably will find at least a few things unseemly about him.
Oh well, on to happier things. After a renewing spring break, I’m very much looking forward to the summer. As much as I enjoy teaching at UCF, it certainly will be nice to have only one job for a few months. It does look, though, like I will be playing sax more frequently around town. As always, I’ll be sure to let you know the details as the develope.
My media appetite, as many of you know, has always been voracious. Well, recently I’ve been enjoying the game WarioWare: Touched on the Nintendo DS. Its amazing how simple, stupid games can aggregate into such an excellently replayable kluge-game. I’ve also been enjoying the comic book stylings of one Alan Moore as I’ve finally got around to reading his Tom Strong and Top 10 series, both of which are highly entertaining. Swamp Thing and Watchmen were both excellent series, but entirely different in tone from his more recent work. Moore seems to be having entirely too much fun playing with the various archetypes and conventions of the comic/super-hero genre. This, of course, is great fun for the reader who gets the jokes, and perhaps fun on a different level for the rest of the audience.
On the tele, Patrick and I have been getting caught up on Lost, Battlestar Galactica, and Alias. We’re woefully behind on our Carnivale watching, though, and let’s not even talk about show’s like Farscape and Firefly, neither of which we have finished. I’m also thrilled that the new Doctor Who has been successfully regenerated and exported out of England through the magic of the internet. Of course, I’ll gladly pay for the eventual DVD’s, but for now, the internet is the only place I can watch the show. Oh well, its just the network’s loss of advertisement revenue. Guess they can afford it.
Patrick is doing wonderfully in grad school learning all about the joys of the field of social work. He’s also completed a few quilts which he’ll be entering into a quilting competition locally, all of which are the finest I’ve ever seen. I’ll see if we can’t get a picture of 3 up here for you all to witness firsthand.
Before I go, I hope all of you pondered for just a second or two about what the Easter/Passover/Solstice time meant to you. I know that I thought about what it means to be renewed in life and in spirit, and how important it is to recognize and enshrine these kind of feelings into celebrations like the above. No matter what your specific faith draws you to, the concept of renewal, revival, and regeneration is throughout all creation. Without it, life would not have gotten this far as it is, and what life there was would be stale and uninteresting. So I’m glad for this season and hopeful for the coming days of life, whatever that entails.
Doctor Who – Rose
Posted on March 08, 2005Yeah, so it was like Christmas 1981 yesterday evening when I got home to find that the Internet Fairy had left the first episode of the new Doctor Who series. I can honestly say that apart from some music and effects, the new series’ writer/producer Russell T Davies should not be EXTERMINATEd. Rather, this new incarnation of the beloved, British, scifi institution finds a way to enchant new viewers without completely turning off the massive fan-base (ie. George Lucas).
I was particularly relieved when I found out that the newly written theme had not made it in time for this draft, but can be heard here if you’re curious. Also, if you’re in need of a spot-on, more spoilery review check out Warren Ellis’ site.
For those of you in Orlando who are interested but aren’t fortunate enough to have your own Internet Fairy, feel free to drop by and ask nicely. I’d love to host a weekly Doctor Who night, but I don’t think Patrick would tolerate that amount of geekiness. Well, at least not on a weekly basis.
Winter Adventures
Posted on January 28, 2005Its been an interesting, crazy month so far this January. New Year’s, as I previously mentioned, was spent out at the Cypress Cove Nudist Colony. I had gigs both New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day, which left me quite exhausted for the balance of that weekend. Then, last weekend, we played again out at the Cove. Evidently, the next few months are kinda slow out there, but they fully intend for us to be out several times a month over the summer. Makes sense, I think.
Then in mid-January, I travelled up to our nation’s capitol for some work-related business, during which I got to visit with CJ & Alfred, Clara & Dick, Keri, and Tony and eat dinner at some awesome restraunts. I have to admit that if I were ever to desire a change in location, the greater Washington D.C./northern Virginia/southern Maryland area is quite appealing.
While up there, I found out that my digital music mentor Jerry Gardner had passed away quite unexpectantly. This left Jon (the other digital music instructor) and I quite shaken, particularly since Jon had just talked to him the night he passed away. But classes had to be covered, so we were both asked to share the effort. This added one extra class to my schedule, in addition to the other extra class we had begged the department to allow us to teach on computer music. So now, I’m up to teaching four classes at UCF in addition to my full-time obligation at NAVAIR. Fun stuff indeed.
At first I was scared I couldn’t handle it, but Patrick’s been supportive and offered to assist me with the outside-of-class obligations. He even met with my two musictech classes when I had to be out of town the first week of the semester. So now, it only seems overwhelming when I stop to think about it, which I subsequently try not to do.
Now for something completely geeky. I have been playing Final Fantasy 1 on the GBA (GameBoy Advance) for the last few weeks (well, since around Christmas), and I have to say that it really sucks. I never started with it but skipped ahead to FF 4 (the first on the SNES) which I absolutely adored. I think what discourages me about it is the incessant random battles throughout the dungeons, all of which contain random dead-end pathways. This was never my favorite component of the Final Fantasy series, at least not with the early battle systems. I think it wasn’t until FF6 that I started to enjoy customizing my characters more, and that certainly got insanely fun around FF10. Nevertheless, I will finish this game just to say that I’ve done it. Then, its on to finish FF5-FF10, none of which I ever completed. Yeah, I might finish before the end of civilization.
Ah, almost out of time. I have absolutely no time to talk about how great Lemony Snicket’s Series of Unfortunate Events is, both the bothersome books and the frightening film. Absolutely no time to talk about the wonders of Lost, the same-ness of Alias and 24, and the intelligence of the new Battlestar Galatica. Oh, and I can’t even begin to speak about Graham Norton, the old poof who I’ve terribly ripped off in this last paragraph.
The Prodigal Musician
Posted on January 03, 2005After starting out to recount my New Year’s experience, I turned down an unexpected garden path to find myself understanding at last my turning away from and eventual return to a life with music.
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Christmas, Curry Ketchup, and the Cell Phone Disaster
Posted on December 27, 2004Christmas is always such a hectic, manic experience, and this year proved no exception. We drove down to Jupiter on Christmas Eve to visit with my father, and afterwards made it to my mother’s new place to stay the night. Jeff and Heather this year followed suit, which was a good change from previous years where we’ve seem to pass each other at different times and locations. Both families were fun to visit with, and other than the driving provided for a relaxing Christmas Eve/Christmas morning.
Then it was back up north to Patrick’s grandparents new place to visit with his family, which thankfully all gather together at one location! Patrick’s family, as always, was entertaining to say the least. The present-opening alone was a site to behold, with shards of wrapping paper flying about and a lengthy cacauphony of squeels and explanations.
Fortunately there was no blood-shed or feelings hurt, and everyone seemed to enjoy their gifts. The family was particularly pleased at Patrick and Nancy’s home-made gifts of tree-skirts, quilts, and hand-bags, as well they should! Its one thing to give of money, but quite another to give of money, time, and creative energy. I know I’ll treasure my two pairs of pajama bottoms!
Patrick and I finally made it back to our castle, where we opened stockings. We had already exchanged gifts on the night before Christmas Eve, but this proved to be a pleasant and relaxing way to cap off Christmas. Particularly exciting in my stocking was the discovery of a bottle of curry ketchup, a treat which can typically be found in German restraunts. Though I’ve enjoyed everything that I’ve been given this Christmas season, this one simple gift has stolen the show. At least until it runs out, which will probably be in a few days at my current rate of consumption.
Lastly, we come to the incident of the cell phone, which I mention because it was just too insane and tragic to leave out. Paulo, a friend of my brothers, was visiting last night with his room-mate Chris, on their way up from South Florida to their base in Georgia. Both will be serving our country with distinction soon in Iraq, and I of course wish them the best of fortune. Having said that, I gladly laughed my ass off at Paulo’s misfortune with his cell phone.
After getting lost driving to our house for what must have been the third time, he decided to park next to the storm drain in front of our house. Then, when he got out of his car, his cell phone detached from its hook and fell right down the storm drain. At first, we thought it might be salvagable by opening up the manhole cover and fishing it out, but once we succeeded at opening up the cover, we realized how lost his phone had become.
I’m sure all of you can imagine the utter horror you’d feel if something like your wallet or cell phone fell into a pit of water, muck, and refuse. Yet because it happened to Paulo, and because he was a good sport about, we all had a good laugh. The moral of the story? Laugh when bad stuff happens and buy insurance on your cell phone. Oh and try some curry ketchup.
About the Pekingese
Posted on December 22, 2004Ah, the beauty and the burden of owning Pekingese. This particular breed of dog has the unique ability to simultaneously annoy and amaze us. Of course, by that I am referring to the recent incident involving a tin of ribbon candy which I shall detail within.
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About the Kilt
Posted on December 22, 2004As you may know, I have recently revived my sax-playing thanks to a friend at work. His band CD and the Things is a group of musicians, some of which come and go, but whose core consists of Charlie, his wife Brandy, his brother Artie, Enrique, and myself. Our illustrious trajectory so far has taken us from a bowling alley bar to the UCF Football Game Fan Fair all all the way up to the Cypress Cove Nudist Colony where we’ll be playing this New Year’s Eve and Day.
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